We've always appreciated Charlie Sheen's candidness!
On Wednesday, Charlie spoke to Michael Strahan about a variety of intense topics, including his HIV battle, thoughts about suicide, and how steroid abuse led to his 2011 meltdown.
Despite all the gains the Two & A Half Men alum has made since his diagnosis, he also admitted to experiencing suicidal thoughts on the day he learned the news.
The controversial celeb revealed:
"I immediately wanted to eat a bullet. But my mom was there. I wouldn't do that in front of her or let her find me to clean up that mess. But then, something else came over me. They gave me a handful of pills and said, 'You can go home now, and you're going to live.'"
Wow... what a deep confession. We're so glad Charlie came to his senses.
Speaking on another dark time in his life, the 51-year-old went into detail about his steroid abuse and how it led to his infamous "tiger blood" breakdown.
The celeb explained:
"I was doing way too much testosterone cream. Trying to keep the old libido up. It metabolizes into basically a 'roid rage. That whole odyssey. That was basically an accidental roid rage. But there's some good quotes that came out of it, right? There's a few fun moments. So bizarre, so bizarre, so bizarre. I think ultimately, in our blueprint, in our DNA, I believe that we are the sum total of all of our experiences, good and bad. But they don't lead the charge. It's fun to kind of watch sometimes but also just a little bit cringeable. It's like, 'Dude, what the hell was that?'"
HA! We love how Sheen can be funny about something so serious!
But wait, that's not all!
Listen to Charlie discuss his life today, "carrying the torch" for the HIV community, and the great love he has for his family (below)!
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